Its been almost a month since my last post and in the past week I have received numerous emails asking if we are ok. So, time to do an update!
We are absolutely 100% well. Our Master/slave relationship is amazing, our kids are well, our business is BUSY, and we bought 8 acres of land.
All this is keeping us, well, busy. So where to begin.
I think our relationship has never been better, I do believe, we have that balance, that is right for us. I know what is expected of me, and I meet those expectations
to the best of my ability and Master knows what is expected of Him , yes He also has expectations and it just works for us. Sex is good, and the BDSM is good. What more is there to say?
You know, people have said and written to me about
us being so "perfect", and you know, being happy doesn't mean our life is perfect, doesn't mean we have perfect kids, or a perfect home, it means we have chosen to look beyond the imperfections. That is our life.
The New Property
We started looking back in December. We had some major issues with his family. We all share ONE driveway, and the USPS STOPPED delivery to us, due to them. Kids, garbage, toys in lane way. Seriously, how bad is that when a federal office will not come back due to the pigsties up there. County was called (and that was my fault no idea how) and when USPS stopped delivery and we raised a stink
it became..my fault. Again no idea, how. I didn't tell them to stop delivery. I was accused of being a bitch, of being *perfect* of being selfish, cause we demanded THEY cleaned up so WE could get mail. They didn't care for they were receiving their mail but I Guess that makes us selfish for wanting ours.
This was just once incident that went on in December. You honestly cannot image the stress we were under, the despair. I was sick for weeks, AGAIN, caused by His family. And He said..time to move.
So we stated the hunt for a new home, all the while, I cried, and we looked in Brooksville and Plant City and Polk City and then I started to question the logistics of it all. I was NOT leaving my kois behind, so any place we bought would HAVE to have a pond built and up and running BEFORE we moved in and we would need a shop built before we could move in
and we would have to sell this place (His mother, argh thinks we would just give it to her at a rate from 20 years ago, I out right told her she couldn't afford this place) and all this is running thru my head. Owning this place and buying another and building and ponds and staff and and and...
we looked to our own backyard. Sitting there in our little oasis, was 8 acres, for sale, with a PRIVATE driveway, on a TOTALLY different road, surrounded by nature, the things I love. And so we bought it. We have officially owned it hmm 12 days now, and we have already started to use the new driveway. We had to clear out a road of trees, and shrugs and its a little rough and we wont
let anyone else use it for now, but I expect by the end of the year ALL our friends will be using OUR driveway. Argh it was so bad, you know we have a party and I HAVE to tell MOMMY DEAREST, for if not she gets upset, and all these cars and all these people,some of our friends have even been STOPPED by them, well you know, NO MORE. For this land, all 8 acres..is ours. Ultimately I would love to build a home in the middle of it, but that is years to come. For now, we clean up, we will rent a backhoe soon to fill, we will add walkway's ect
and make it..ours.
We have still had some issues with his family, you know took me ten years of marriage to master to realize..when it comes to HIS family, I don't matter. When I told my mom we bought the land, she said to my dad as I waited on the phone and listened "John and starla bought 8 acres." When we told His mom, she said "John bought 8 acres." and that has what its been like our entire marriage. I do not matter. I MAKE the wood items (the mickey mouse mail box, the lawn decor ect) and they say "look how talented John is, look what He made."
and I work 40 and 50 hours a week, ensuring this business is a success and they say "john works so hard." I do not matter to them and that is why we have so many issues. It is not a nice feeling when one does not matter. AND, it is not just me, ANYONE outside their little life, does not matter. You know I think about the few parties we have gone to, and there are NEVER any spouses, its all ..them. Its like the spouse do not exist.
Took me ten years to realize the problem, and now I am in the acceptance stage, that I will never ever have a relationship with them, and that's ok. Buying this land will help, for I will no longer have
to see them, have to deal with stopped mail delivery, or getting out of the truck to move toys and crap out of the lane way.
So far all are working, our He child is not sure if he will have a job much longer, the joys of construction. So we wait and hope that he remains employed. Our SIL had eye surgery in Dec, He has
been battling an eye disease for a year and a half, its too the point were He was blind. It seems, so far, the surgery has WORKED!! We are thrilled with this. Our she child and SIL are talking YES talking about YES YES BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is mentioned at least ONCE BY THEM when we are visiting. OMG I am so excited LOL.
I am also glad they decided to wait, I love kids and can't wait to be a grandma BUT I DO NOT want to be a parent again. I am getting comfy in my life, without kids around all day, so we do what we want when we want. So yes I am glad they have waited until they are ready. I will keep everyone informed.
OMG it is insanely busy. The entire year last year was just busy, we had no slow months, Mitchell is working full time, Master is working full time and I am working full time. As for Jan, well if this month is any indication of what the year is going to be like, then we are again in for a busy busy year. But it also keeps me form posting on here..: Seems my blog is the last thing I do, and lately I am so busy I just don't have the time to write.
Hopefully that will change once the new website is up and running, but I doubt it..:)
264 days and we are cruising!!! I will add a countdown clock on here for the next entry. This cruise we are taking the kids!! (our she child and SIL only, for the other two cannot take time off work) We are so excited andddd if all goes well then in 634 days we will be cruising to ALASKA!!!!! OMG I am so spoiled..:) Along with this we been doing Disney..alot, one of my favorites spots. Dec we did animal kingdom, and this month we went to Epcot and I am hoping to get to MGM studios BEFORE the month is over. We shall see how behind we are.
So this is my life in a nutshell, its not full of drama, or fights, or sex, but we are happy, and we are busy, and we are good. And that is why, I have been unable to post. Hopefully it won't be so long before the next one.