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Friends, Kids, Life
June 20 2012



One of my best friends is Sammie, we have been friends for YEARS and it has taken years for Master to finally trust her. Yes really. This year is the first time he has EVER let me go out with someone, without Him tagging along. Sammie and I have gone out a couple of times for mani/pedicures and I so enjoy her company. But then it always gets me thinking. For we have such intense talks. But lately my thinking has gone to her and her happiness and how I so wish that she would find the man of her dreams. I think Sammie is high maintenance, I think she has a slave heart and I know she is one of the kindest caring people that I know. I can count on one hand how many people care for animals/life/nature the way I do CJ, is one and Sammie is the other. I seen her tears when I told her ginger is dying, and I heard her caring, when she offered to take Ginger in to the vets, incase I couldn't. I listen to her talk about her kitties and the adopted one that keeps coming to her home and eating the cat food. She loves her cats, she loves the pets, she loves..deeply. And when I listen to her, and look at her, I see such an amazing woman, that has done well for herself, and it always makes me sad, that men, potential partners, have yet too see that in her. It is friends like sammie that make this world a better place.

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And lately I have needed that. My legs have been so bad, that I have had thoughts of suicide. ya really me. I think OMG I can't do this anymore, I can't do this for the rest of my life and Master, is so supportive and so caring, and Sammie calls and checks in on me and my kids, call and stop over, and THAT keeps me going. The pain has been so bad, it feels like someone is shoving a hot poker in my heal and up to my knees, I am taking pain killers every 4 hours plus my balcofen and I just coping. I have cried every single day because it is just too much. And I think, how am I going to live another 50 years, with all this pain. Yes my master and my friends and my kids, make it okay and for that I thank them and I love them.

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My pets, well Galloway is still with us, I will have to post a picture of him. He is a male cardinal and He is SPOILED ROTTEN! He has the run of the fish house and at night he comes in and has his bath and gets a berry and then sits with us and talks and chirps until bedtime. He makes me laugh and smile. The Kois are doing well,. I lost two large goldfish to pop-eye. So the pond has been on medication for the past 10 days. The fish do not like the medicated food but they eat it. Unfortunately the turtle eggs did not hatch. I am not sure whether to be happy or sad about this. For more turtles means a bigger pen, which means more construction. Yet it is sad that nothing hatched. The reef tank is well and growing, I switched to LED lights and the tank and corals love it! Good investment! And the dogs are doing good Bella is still in massage and water therapy, and Ginger is holding her own. No real signs of the cancer spreading yet. So that is good...:)

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Sales have slowed down for the summer, typical summer but this year I worry we have a BIG mortgage payment now. 50 more payments to go and the new land is paid for!! YA YA YA but it also makes me worry..alot. We love the new land, we love the forest and we love feeding the squirrels and birds. Great investment for us, now to get it paid off..did I mention only 50 more payments to go????

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Vacations - In 49 days we are heading to Canada to visit my family. Master has all his paper work, so we just hope he can get across. If He cant, we will not try again, this will be it. We Leave on Aug 9 and return on Aug 14. Sammie will be house sitting for us! And then 8 weeks later we leave Oct 15 for our cruise. Again Sammie is house sitting for us. Two major vacations this year, I hope we can afford the time off from the shop. It is our slow season so hopefully we won't get too back logged. And I hope Master is allowed to cross!

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Sex Love and all the rest. - Well I have been sick so there is nothign happening on that end. I am hoping this afternoon I can entice Master to use me. He worries too much about my health. Some days, I just need to feel His touch. Anyways thats it for today Hope you have a good one!



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