Beat Myself Up
August 6 2015
I am my own worse enemy and I constantly beat myself up ---- over this blog. Master says He is going to start beating me when I get down on myself over this blog! But sheesh most blogs I read post 1, 2, 3 or even MORE in a week and I am lucky to post ONCE in a month! And then He reminds me...
Not everyone in the blog world works full time, I do, albeit at home, I put in my 30 to 40 hours a week in the office to ensure this business keeps running.
And no one as far as I know, is dealing with a chronic debilitating painfull disease like I am.
And I keep an immaculate house, laundry all done and good healthy meals cooked. I know some bloggers do, but I also know some do not.
And I take care of 30 chickens, 15 kois, an array of water turtles and land tortoises, as well as two flying squirrels, two cats and a dog. Not including the array of wildlife that ends up at our door needing cared for and loved and then released back into the wild.
And I also ensure I am always clean and ready for His use. Always.
But you know, all I do still doesn't stop me from beating myself up over this damn journal. Surely I can find an hour SOMEWHERE once a week to write/complete (I have three partial entries done) a journal entry. And then I think..well where. Where in the hell do I squeeze that hour out of my schedule and of course the circle continues and i beat myself up.
Ya I think Master needs to start beating me when I get down on myself over this journal. Sheesh!
We just got back from a cruise and it was SO FUN, probably the ONLY time I would be able to squeeze an hour out somewhere to write a journal entry, accept we do not get internet on board. LOL!
We came home and I packed lube in our bags for the next cruise (in 80 days!) But sheesh so we are in our room and He has his belt off beating me with it, I am
"Master turn up the television before security comes knocking on our door."
So He did and just kept on beating me! PERV. Uses me, cums and then shoves the end of the hair brush up me and makes me cum all over it. Did I mention He is a perv??
Next morning and He is up bright and early, I don't mean out of bed I mean..UP. Next thing I know this hard swollen cock is poking me in the ass. LUBE LUBE LUBE
I shove my head into the pillow so the neighbors do not hear us at 7 AM as HE shoves His cock up my dry tight ass! This is for Him not for me.
But a girl would think that after 15 years she would have trained her Master to USE LUBE!
It is in the suitcase LOL, any bets on whether He uses it??
The kids - our Daughter and SIL are getting excited over the baby. We have all heard the heartbeat and they are now feeling the baby kick. We find out the sex in two more weeks! I cannot wait..:) Since we will be LUCKY to have TWO grandkids, this baby is going to be so loved and so spoiled! I wonder when we can take him/her to Disney???
Our Son and DIL, are all moved into their new home, and counting down the payments only 83 more to do and they are mortgage free!! How exciting is that to say especially at 25 years of age!! They both love the property and all the land. Best move they ever made, I do believe.
The Business - ARGH SMH FFS GAWD --- LOL We are SO BUSY. Our guys are working 50 and 60 hour weeks and still are not even close to catching up on the orders. We are doing our best and MOST of our customers understand this. I am thankful we have such good customers for they sure make this job easier!
I will be glad however, when we get to retire. Which I hope is soon..:)
I am still spending the days plugged. I think I am starting to get used to it, cept it makes me horny..:) I think based on the amount of sex Master and I are having, it makes Him horny too LOL. I swear we act like newlyweds! Aww it is good all good.
Anyways it is now mid-afternoon and I have to go check on the animals and then get a snack ready for Master, and YA I actually got this written, completed and posted ALL IN ONE DAY!
I have lost 40 pounds this year