Wednesday, July 21 2010 23:36:03  |
Wednesday
Life pretty much still just sucks.
i just instinctively pull further and further away to protect myself. It's easier to distance myself than to deal with the emotions.
i don't even know what i want anymore.
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Sunday, July 18 2010 22:30:44 |
Sunday
Still not much going on. Things continue to be very unsettled. The only thing i tend to focus on lately, is making sure that i don't think. i get way too emotional and start over processing which only starts a roller coaster effect of emotions.
And i am sick of being sick...geeze...lol. Just when i thought i was starting to feel better, a second wave hit...grrr.
Can't believe the weekend is over.
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Tuesday, July 13 2010 22:03:58 |
Tuesday
It has been a very long week already, and it's only Tuesday.
Work has been extremely hectic. i am still trying to get over being sick. i have no patience or time to be sick right now...arghhhh.
Not much going on...i still don't want to think.
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Monday, July 12 2010 00:39:04 |
Sunday...Well Actually Monday
Well it's 1:45 a.m. and i am still awake. It's gonna suck getting up for work in a few hours. (assuming that i actually will fall asleep at all)
My mind and body are drained, tired and just over-exhausted, but i have not been sleeping well at all lately. i constantly replay things over and over in my mind.
Just kinda goin through the motions these days. i am not happy. i miss the calmness and security. i miss being happy. i miss having the ability to make Master happy.
i wish i had made different choices, but it is impossible to rewind life and change your past actions.
Actually, i wish that i could just turn off my mind...turn off my emotions and thoughts.
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Saturday, July 10 2010 20:09:20 |
Saturday
There's really not much to say.
Things are still rough.
There is a coldness that makes distance and detachment grow.
But then again, detaching myself is prolly the only way i am surviving right now...cuz it just hurts too much to care when there’s nothing you can do to make it better.
The more i think or try, the more emotional i become.
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Thursday, July 1 2010 23:29:04 |
Thursday
Still going through a very rough time right now.
i think it's better if i don't share my feelings at the moment.
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